so over it

Today I received yet another notice that I am automatically qualified to run the ING NYC Marathon.

Unlike the reaction I had to the email notification two months ago, I feel nothing.

No, that is not right. I do feel...like I don't want to do it. I don't want the long hours of training. I don't want to miss hanging with friends one weekend night a week to prep for a long run. I don't want to run 26.2 miles ever again. Unless I am in danger and have to. Then maybe it will be okay.

Two weeks ago I was going for a run in the park, and ran opposite of the last leg of the More Marathon. That would be the marathon only run my women over 40. As I moved in the opposite direction i watched as they went by me. All I could think was:

"You poor bastards. Why, why, why???"

Can you believe I wanted to do that same thing just a year ago? Experience teaches us so much. My lesson from the past twelve months?

Just because you can do something doesn't mean you have to. Even if it is extraordinary.