Thursday, August 18, 2005

simply the best

So. How good are you?

That's always a fun question. Go above and beyond self-esteem assessment, we are talking how do you place yourself?

Since my last promotion, I am becoming more and more aware of how much of an asset I am to this company. That sounds egotistical, but really it is a complete tone of wonder. Like the man in Talking Heads says, "how did I get here?"

Don't get me wrong, I've always been top in my class. Top 10%. I was never the smartest person. Not even the cream of the crop. I hung out with the cream of the crop, and gilded some knowledge from them. (Yo, Colorado boy, remember Digitals? Exactly.)

Therefore, I always kind of assumed that I could have some influential jobs, but the real leadership goes to the top two or three percent. Right?

I guess not. Okay, I know Bush is president and he sure as shit didn't graduate with honors. But somewhere I still had this Pollyanna idea in my head that the gifteds rule the world. As I am not one of them, I innately believed in a kind of glass ceiling. That's why I never even considered trying for an actual MD earlier in my life. It literally never crossed my mind that I could do it.

The most ironic thing about this whole situation is I am one of the most positive people on the planet. I ALWAYS look on the bright side. I never say never. I carpe diem.

Heck, forget being a doctor. I think I'll rule the world instead.

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